Bold of me to assume that I would start writing diligently on my blog again after announcing to the world that I was back here last year. It has already been 7 months and 23 days since my previous post. I am born a liar, I guess.
This post has actually been sitting in my drafts since January this year, but as I have mentioned before a long time ago, writing scares me. I love doing it the most in the world; nothing beats the feeling of penning down my thoughts and imaginations, pouring them into words and sentences. Nothing ever. So perhaps I should start writing scared. I should write terrified. And perhaps, I should start with an important life update: I am finally quitting my first 'proper' job this month.
I have always been in awe with older people who are able to start anew, those who are able to find new passions at a later decade in their life. But it had never occured to me that in the year of my final twenties, I will be quitting my own work, although four years ago this had been such a dream place for me. Working in a large bookstore had been such a wonderful dream come true that it pained me to realise that sometimes, your dreams will disappoint you. I am not saying in any way that I regretted working here for the past four years—I am actually thankful for the experience. But, when your goals no longer align with the people who are in charge of employing you, you know that you are no longer meant to linger around.
I have yet to find out what path awaits me next, and I have less than ten days to ponder on that. The dread and terror are gently creeping inside my head, but I refuse to let it take away the relief I felt the moment I sent my resignation letter. It is going to be a scary unknown path from today onwards, but perhaps what I need in my life is some fear to help me to step forward from my comfort zone.
Before starting a new job (hopefully soon), I am hoping to find time to continue my writing projects again and start focusing on old and new hobbies. I try my best to journal whenever I have extra time, and I also would like to start my ambitious sewing projects too. If you are following me on my socials, you may see some of these projects of mine around. And for my biggest hope, that would be to come back here and actually blog actively again (no jinx please!)
See you around, lovelies (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) .ᐟ.ᐟ
Till next time ♡ Love, Aishah Humaira'
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